Go figure(:

2012-02-14T19:56:00.002+08:00

小鸟长大了。翅膀硬了。飞走了。

2012-02-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

Playlist 130212
1. 误会 - 飞轮海
2. 势在必行 - 陈势安 & Bii
3. 你被写在我的歌里 - 苏打绿 & Ella

2012-02-13T16:58:00.000+08:00

Got the set of passport photos today LOL. As horrible as I expected. So ugly I was tempted to burn the whole set. But spent four bucks on it so might as well let it serve as a form of entertainment yeah? Oh and I just heard someone from the block opposite mine sneeze HAHAHA damn funny. Sorry not very funny but life's been rather mundane these few weeks and small stupid things like these are just what's enough to crack me up. Feeling really frustrated because I have this whole pile of homework which I just tried to do. But failed because I have no idea how to do any of them. And so this means I can't strike them off my homework list because "tried" doesn't mean "completed". I love crossing things off lists so being unable to do so really sucks.

2012-02-11T22:09:00.002+08:00

My brother is such a bitch -.-
Anyway, met a psychopath/pervert/whatever-you-call-a-sick-man today at the bus-stop and I'm still super freaked out. Gonna maintain at least 3meters radius distance from all members of the opposite sex (5meters for those above 50) for awhile. Until I manage to remove the horrible incident from my mind. Gross max.
But other than that, today was quite an okay day. Ballet was good (: Oh but my right thigh is still injured and I still can't do a full side split/full right split. Which is super infuriating because it's been almost a year already and I'm getting impatient waiting for it to heal itself. So I guess I'm going to have to just force myself to do those splits next week regardless of the pain. And see how it goes because I'm tired of waiting.
Felt mentally and physically drained after two hours of ballet so I decided to give myself a break for tonight. Yeah I know excuses excuses but I never needed excuses so desperately. Until now. Urghh what the hell am I saying I'm not even making sense anymore. Whatever bye.

2012-02-10T21:45:00.001+08:00

This week passed exceptionally fast I have no idea why. Today was not a good day, and this week wasn't a good week too so I'm glad that it's over. Lectures this week were really dry and I dozed off a few times. Feeling quite guilty about it but there's nothing I can do so I should just forget it. Reached home super early today but didn't really use my time very well. Only completed GP homework and chemistry practical ws, which is like only 20% of all my homework. Guess I'll have to stay up again today to rush out at least another 30% so that I won't have to skip swimming/ballet or stay up on Sunday night and repeat the vicious cycle of falling asleep during lectures again.
Anyway, probably the only good news this week was that RVNP finally got GOLD FOR UOPA!! I mean, I know that it's none of business anymore but still feel really really happy (: And really proud of my sec 3s HAHA! Really hope that they will do as well tomorrow as they did last saturday, and hopefully get into the finals! Oh and pawn my brother's school haha because he's so damn arrogant. But sadly he injured both his wrists during PE and the doctor suspects that he has injured his ligament so he may not be able to participate in the finals (which he is so damn sure that his school will get into) which is so sad because he's the captain of the team so..yeah. It's kind of weird that things are going so badly for him this year (with him losing his i-touch and hurting his wrists) since I am the one with the zodiac sign that is supposed to have an unlucky year. Guess these predictions are just not reliable.

2012-02-03T21:33:00.001+08:00

This week was another long and busy week. I can't believe that it's finally over (thank goodness). Passport photo-taking today was horrible. I was feeling quite okay at first but then the photographer asked me to tilt my head down. Then tilt my head down even more. Then push my glasses up. Then don't smile. DON'T SMILE. And I was stupid enough to comply. As if I need a bunch of photos I paid four freaking dollars for that shows me looking like a grumpy old fag. Urghhh.
Anyway, pretty sure I'm going to be spending my weekends catching up on tutorials and assignments, ballet and swimming. It's surprising how I still managed to spare time from this crazy week to meet up with friends LOL. Had lunch both today and yesterday with different 4B people, caught up with one another and still slipped in gossip sessions (unhealthy, but undeniably, my absolute favourite). Don't think I'll be able to meet up with them in the next few weeks due to the upcoming lecture tests, so thankfully we had today and yesterday (:
Really hope that I'll be able to do okay for the lecture tests because I really need the motivation to persevere. It's really hard to stay positive when apparently, everyone around me is getting the hang of things and mugging like mad. I think I regret taking Bio because I really have no interest in most of the topics + I never ever do well in it + I'm never going to pursue a career that concerns Bio in future. But since the decision has been set I should just deal with it and stop thinking that giving up on it is the best solution.
Sorry for the weird optimistic/pessimistic post - I really have no idea what's going on with me these days.

2012-01-26T19:06:00.002+08:00

Today was a relatively good day (: We ran to the park near our school (is it called Jurong Park?) for PE, ran around it, then ran back to school. Running was never a fun thing for me (and it still isn't), but I guess running outside school beats running on the school track. I mean, I've had enough of the scenery around the track (which isn't much, fyi) so it was a good change. Still tiring, but if I had to run, it would be a pretty good way to make me.
Went to the library after school. I've been frequenting libraries these two weeks in search of a copy of Jane Eyre for Literature, but the two trips to Bukit Merah Library and the one to the library near JP all ended in disappointment. Ended up borrowing many irrelevant novels during those three trips, which is no good at all, because they're major distractions. But today, I tried Jurong Regional Library after school and to my surprise, I found two copies of the original text of Jane Eyre with illustrations! Plus, I finally found the last book to a sequel I'm reading. It feels good when you find not only one, but two things that you've been searching for for a long long time. Damn good (:

2012-01-24T16:48:00.000+08:00

Playlist 240112:
1. 天后 - 陈势安
2. 你爱上的我 - 张智成
3. 酸甜 - 飞轮海 & SHE
4. 轨迹 - 周杰伦
5. 惧高症 - 徐佳莹
6. 爱不单行 - 罗志祥
7. 爱请问怎么走 - ALin
8. 甜蜜花园 - 林依晨
9. 搁浅 - 周杰伦
10. 一眼万年 - SHE

2012-01-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

Today was another awesome day (: LOL I'm joking I wouldn't post that three days in a row. It wouldn't make sense because life is seldom that perfect. So let me try this again.
Today was quite a nice day. I woke up to smses and muscle aches. I spent my day eating great food and rushing out homework. My family treated me like a princess but made me clean up my room. I had a fruitful, but painful birthday. Okay that makes sense.
Anyway, in lieu of my birthday, I did something really brave. I....threw away all my baby pillows and bolsters. Well, except for one. I really can't live without that one. But anyway, it's a great start and I'm really glad I finally mustered the courage to do that. It's not that easy you know? I hope I'll be able to get to sleep tonight. Gosh maybe I'm starting to regret a little.
Oh and I wanna thank everyone who has made these three days so memorable for me. Although I have relatively short term memory, I'm quite sure I'll always remember these three days (or so I hope). I'm really grateful for my friends and family and I know that I'm really lucky to have such supportive (most of the time) people around me.
I'm not going to make any resolutions this year because I keep repeating the same ones every year but I never keep them so I'm not going to be so stupid and make the same ones again. I will just see how this year goes and I guess I will cope just all right. Because I'm seventeen haha. Okay not funny. Anyway, here's wishing everyone an advance happy chinese new year (:

2012-01-22T09:56:00.000+08:00

This is no good. I woke up to muscle aches so bad I thought I had injured myself.

2012-01-21T21:26:00.001+08:00

Today was another awesome day (: (: Ballet as usual, but I enjoyed the first two hours because we were spamming challenging allegro exercises. After that was kind of boring but I'm satisfied enough. Anyway, just when I was leaving the studio, my teacher suddenly started singing the birthday song (the edited version, what with you were born in the zoo and so) and my friend passed me a present. I was seriously damn damn damn shocked but pleasantly surprised too, of course. Yeap and we took some photos blablabla and then my teacher just kept singing the birthday song repeatedly so I couldn't leave. And my specs were fogging up with steam due to the immense heat and probably also the embarrassment.
My mood was only slightly dampened when my parents postponed my birthday dinner to another day because my dear brother had caught a fever again. Like seriously when is he going to learn his lesson and stop going for cca training when he hasn't fully recovered? And he just announced to me (not in any way apologetic) that he might not be able to go for cny visiting so I would be left facing all the relatives awkwardly by myself. And he had the cheek to grin. What the hell.

2012-01-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

Today was a super awesome day (: (: I actually enjoyed most of the performances put up by the performing arts so the cny celebrations were okay (except for the cheering part I totally sian diao). And big thanks to all those who wished me an elated (someone told me it was the opposite of belated) birthday and celebrated my birthday with, and for me (: Really really enjoyed my day, and the day ended off with dinner with my primary school clique haha so it was just perfect seriously. Super happy now and I don't even know why because it's not even my official birthday but oh well I don't give a damn. Bye and good night!!

2012-01-16T21:03:00.001+08:00

Playlist 160112:
1. 天后 - 陈势安

This is one of the rare times where I have only one song in my playlist because I'm seriously crazy over this song because of the tune and the lyrics. Many thanks to TJQ for recommending this song to me ^^
Anyway, I was super 无奈 last night because I went to bed at 11pm but I couldn't sleep all the way till 3am. Even though I tried to make myself feel tired by walking around the house numerous times and even watching a soccer match, I just failed to fall asleep. Felt super stupid because I was feeling more and more tired and hungry as the hours passed but I couldn't sleep nor eat. It felt damn horrible feeling the hours tick by and knowing that another minute of sleep had just slipped away from my bare hands. And I had to wake up at 5.30am so I felt like any sleep I had gotten was useless. Hope that it will not happen again tonight because I actually have to attend lessons tomorrow and not just tend a carnival stall. Urghhh.

2012-01-16T20:45:00.001+08:00

陈势安 - 天后

终于找到借口趁着醉意上心头
表达我所有感受
寂寞渐浓沉默留在舞池角落
你说的太少或太多
都会让人更惶恐

谁任由谁放纵谁会先让出自由
最后一定总是我
双脚悬空在你冷酷热情间游走
被侵占所有还要笑着接受

我嫉妒你的爱气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我而是一种虚荣
有人疼才显得多么出众

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨
因为我们都有错

推开苍白的手推开苍白的厮守
管你有多么失措
别再叫我心软是最致命的脆弱
我明明都懂却仍拼死效忠

我嫉妒你的爱气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我而是一种虚荣
有人疼才显得多么出众

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨
因为我们都有错

如果有一天爱不再迷惑
足够去看清所有是非对错
直到那个时候你在我的心中
将不再被歌颂把你当作天后
不会再是我

2012-01-15T15:52:00.000+08:00

This morning, I had the sudden urge to cut my hair because I realized that I do not have to keep it long for the ballet exam in March. So I asked my mum if she could arrange an appointment with our usual hairdresser and she chided me for that because it's like the Chinese New Year period and so the fees are exceptionally high and she told me to keep my urge till after Chinese New Year. And because I couldn't resist keeping my long and bushy hair for that long a period, I suggested cutting my hair at QB house instead. And I got an even worse scolding from her because it's gonna be CNY in around a week and if I screwed up my hair at QB I can just go and hide myself from all my relatives LOL. But I'm adamant about it so I'm gonna try persuade her for the next few days and finally when I get her approval (hopefully), I will cut my hair at the Tiong Bahru outlet of QB house on Thursday evening just before I go for my VWO session near there. Perfect plan (:

2012-01-14T22:17:00.001+08:00

My dear lord, please forgive me, for I have sinned. I should have stuck firmly to my resolution of swearing off coke. As tempting as it was for me to satisfy my long-deprived throat of the gassy drink it deserved after three long torturous hours of ballet, I should have listened to my head instead of my heart. I now know the dire effects of coke and the horribly sweet residue it leaves tingling in my mouth, and I promise not to put a single drop of it into my poor mouth unless highly necessary.
Ballet was okay today. As usual, I enjoyed allegro but detested adage. And I've decided to postpone my inter exams to November upon my teacher's kind and relatively subtle prompting that I wasn't ready. I know that I've made the right decision because I felt myself relax slightly for the first time in weeks. The only thing I'm afraid of is the clashing of my inter exams and PW. But I guess things will settle out for themselves (:

2012-01-13T21:44:00.001+08:00

It's been a relatively long week and I'm glad that it's almost over. I just have to get through ballet and swimming and the weekend homework that keeps piling. I actually can't wait for next week. Although I hate orientations and carnivals and chinese new year and all those celebratory events that require my adrenaline level to be pumped up extra high, I really do need a break from all of this. Unbelievable.

2012-01-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

I finally understand that my friends' results are as important, and sometimes even more important than my own results. I just cannot bring myself to be happy in this kind of situation. I wish I could do something about this but I can't. Sucks like hell.

2012-01-07T22:02:00.001+08:00

Ballet was okay I guess. The first part was quite boring because we were doing all the slow stuff like adage, which I really don't like because it requires a huge amount of concentration and control (which I may not have most of the time). But afterthat we moved on to the fast stuff like allegro and dance so it was much better (: Definitely taking inter exams in March because I wanna get it over and done with (like FINALLY) but I'm very very worried that I won't do well because the work is really challenging. Oh and my ballet teacher mentioned that after the March exams, we will be putting on a performance together. A little excited (note that it's a little not very) because we'll be doing an irish dance, but afraid because I don't like performing on a stage with thousands of people sitting in the crowd and staring at me with critical eyes. So I have like a few more months to prepare myself. But first I have to get through inter exams. And school. I don't know which is worse.

2012-01-06T21:57:00.002+08:00

First day of lessons was better than I had expected. The day didn't start out very well, but I think I like all of my teachers. So far. I'm a little freaked out by the syllabus that needs to be covered, but I guess I'll do okay if I pay attention and work hard enough. Speaking of paying attention, I think I did pretty well today trying not to drift off or fall asleep. Was pretty fresh and alert for the whole day, until the PW lecture. Kind of fell asleep during the paper folding/origami/some-other-thing-that-I-don't-know-because-apparently-I-fell-asleep video, but I woke up just in time for the GP lecture. I guess watching extremely long videos just switches my brain off automatically.

Anyway, I think I'm slowly getting used to my class. Although I still feel out of place sometimes, but my classmates are quite nice and I think that I just need to stop thinking of 4B and making stupid comparisons. Somehow or rather, I have to face reality urghhhh. I miss 4B more than I can imagine, but I also know that it's time to move forward. I have to get on with life, but those precious memories will always be stored deeply and securely in my heart.

Just got informed that there's ballet tomorrow, and the syllabus that I'm supposed to learn by then is only half covered. Like only 20/46. So I sped-learnt the exercises and within one hour, I managed to increase the fraction covered to 35/46. But for absolutely no reason I'm still dreading tomorrow's class. We'll see how it goes.

2012-01-03T21:53:00.002+08:00

Initiation was quite horrible today. I've got absolutely no expectations for tomorrow. I miss 4B so much.

2011-12-31T21:59:00.002+08:00

It's New Year's Eve. The television is turned on to a Taiwanese Countdown show, I'm typing on the laptop and my phone is turned on to the radio. I'm disappointed that there isn't a song countdown on 93.3 FM like there always is every year, but the song that's playing now is 爱夏 so I'm not complaining at the moment. My legs are tired as hell, but I've had had a great day out with my friends so it's worth it. I'm all alone at home, while my parents are out at a Countdown Party, but I'm grateful for the rare silence because it's been a long time since I've been at home with absolutely no distractions, free to do what I desire. I know that this silence will not be long-lived, as my brother will be bringing his friends home any moment and they will be playing mahjong overnight in the guest room, so I'm going to enjoy it while I still can. I'm happy that I'm not out counting down, because I absolutely cannot stand crowds, and I'm positive the streets and MRT carriages are going to be packed to the max. It's New Year's Eve, and in almost 2 hours, it will be 2012, which I haven't yet decided if is the dreaded, or anticipated year.

2011-12-30T21:49:00.002+08:00

愛不單行 - 罗志祥
找不到人說心裡的寂寞
找不到人懂怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定在一起的那個人
很多人都像我　一個人過生活

愛只有簡單筆畫　卻比想像複雜
恨安定愛變化　我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍　卻還是沒能將幸福留下

愛是不可數的嗎　為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠　我在等一個人
在等我的永恆　告訴我愛不單行別害怕

用不完身邊泛濫的自由
開始怕孤單是一種詛咒
羨慕我能飛的人為何在天黑以後
還是寧願回到　愛情那個枷鎖

愛只有簡單筆畫　卻比想像複雜
恨安定愛變化　我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍　卻還是沒能將幸福留下

愛是不可數的嗎　為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠　我在等一個人
在等我的永恆　告訴我愛不單行別害怕

我在等一個人　在等我的永恆
告訴我愛不單行相信她

2011-12-30T19:33:00.000+08:00

Playlist 301212:
1. 好朋友 - 罗志祥
2. 爱不单行 - 罗志祥
3. 搞笑 - 罗志祥
4. 第二顺位 - 罗志祥

2011-12-30T16:34:00.001+08:00

Just analysed the timetable and I realised that there's no mention of any lit lessons for my class so I'm a little confused. Anyway, I'm happy with most of my teachers because I don't even know most of them. The only teacher I'm not very happy with is my PW teacher because I've heard from many that she's an extremely slackish teacher.
And just received emails that I'll have to help hold the placard for my class on the first day of school. Plus I've got gate duty during March. Okay actually I'm fine with the holding placard thing because it will keep me from the awkwardness of the first day of school and standing in line with the strangers in my class, but I really don't understand why I still have to do gate duty when I'm not a chairperson anymore. Seriously hope that they won't continue treating me as a GSC next year because I'm no longer one.
Received several other emails from my cca seniors regarding the excos selections that will taking place early next year. Was considering if I should take part but after much thought, I've decided not to. Next year is an important year, with my major ballet exam coming up in June and other school stuff for the whole year, so I guess running for excos is not a great idea.

2011-12-28T21:21:00.001+08:00

You know what? I don't even know if I can trust you anymore.

2011-12-27T19:58:00.002+08:00

Playlist 271212:
1. Listen - Charice
2. If I had you - Adam Lambert
3. Sparks fly - Taylor Swift
4. Have you ever - Brandy
5. Stay the same - Joey McIntyre

2011-12-24T21:44:00.001+08:00

[Edited]

Left to Right: Shanelle, Shannea, Shanae, Shanice
(LOL super confusing names I always get them mixed up)

Christmas party yesterday organised by my mum's friends was okay I guess. Food was superb and I'm really missing the mashed potatoes..but anyway just spent the whole evening there watching tv + looking at the kids run around + eavedropping on the adults' conversation. Oh did I mention that the place was overloaded with kids? But the kids were cute so it was okay haha. Especially the four sisters. Omg they're so cute and goodlooking in their own ways I just have to post their pic here.

And the youngest one (furthest left in the pic) seems to have a crush on my brother. Kept running to him every few minutes and leaning against him - His new girlfriend LOL. Not that he wasn't already smitten with her HAHA.

Concrete Evidence:

Finished reading two great books today (: Plus I spent almost two hours watching the ballet syllabus video, learning and repeating and perfecting seven ballet exercises. Not a massive accomplishment, considering I still have 39 more exercises and the harder ones are all behind. But I guess it's good that I've found the power to start. Hopefully I'll be able to complete all the barre exercises by tomorrow and the centre exercises by the end of this week.

Spending Christmas Eve at home with my brother while my parents are out with their friends at a Christmas party which I refused to go to because I don't know the people there. Guess I'll just be watching the christmas shows on tv and when I get bored, maybe I'll start on another book.

2011-12-23T13:25:00.001+08:00

I'm like so damn freaking screwed. Class allocations are out and all that I can say is I guess I'm going to be a loner next year and the following year. Well I guess that's not too bad either I will just stay to myself and study harder for As.
I'm like having a lot of trouble getting to sleep these few days. Everytime I lie on my bed I try not to think about the upcoming ballet exams because once I do that, I start panicking and my heart beats super fast and I start seeing all the exercises that I have to learn and perfect by March and of course, the images and stupid thoughts continue for a very long time. And I never get to sleep until a few hours later. So this has to stop.

2011-12-22T16:37:00.000+08:00

2B outing yesterday was awesome. Though we didn't really follow the plan but well, I still had lots of fun because they're a bunch of great people (:
Anyway, went to the library today to start on and complete my LA homework, return old books and borrow new books. Felt exceptionally happy I have absolutely no idea why (:

2011-12-17T19:38:00.000+08:00

Totally exhausted from ballet. My standard is like shit now after missing class for two weeks. The first part was torturing because I absolutely hate stretching. But the second part was okay because we learnt the first inter dance. Very fast and intense but very exciting (: Anw I will most probably be taking inter exams in March, which is totally crazy considering there's only three months till then, but I guess good in a way because I can get it over and done with (: My legs are aching and wobbly now. Ouch.

2011-12-16T16:59:00.006+08:00

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
My mum. Uhh yeah haha of course!

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
Probably LOL

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
Is that even possible?

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Yeah I smile at cute kids who look at me (:

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
Maybe Joey's secret admirer haha ^^

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Yes

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
White Converse t-shirt and grey shorts

8. How often do you listen to music?
Everyday

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Jeans

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?
Considering that there's only two weeks till then, I don't think so.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
Both, depending on my mood.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
Yes, myself in my dreams

13. What about ‘R’?
No

14. Can you drive a stick shift?
No

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
Depends on who I guess.

16. Are you going out of town soon?
Nope just went haha (:

17. When was the last time you cried?
After I quarrelled with my father over the locking of the computer a few weeks ago.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
Yes

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
I'm not sure..maybe not.

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
No

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
My computer account locks every two hours -.-

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
Depends on who haha

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
Nope

24. What are you sitting on right now?
Sofa

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
Nope.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
Yes, who hasn't?

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
Joey-the-Pig

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
Not really :)

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Converse

30. Does anyone hate you?
I hope not but yeah most probably

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
No LOL

32. Do you like watching scary movies?
No of course not. I see no point in scaring myself unneccessarily and giving myself nightmares

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
No thanks I want to talk and eat normally

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
None. I mean, if I deleted any one year then I wouldn't be the person I am today right?

35. Did you have a dream last night?
Can't remember..probably not.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
I don't really say it often...so probably long time ago.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
Definitely not

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
No

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Maybe but most probably not LOL

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
So-so. Kind of boring day.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
Nope

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
I'm hanging out with a pig now and will be hanging out with her for the next few hours..and she's female so yeah I guess yes (:

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
I don't remember but I guess something along the line might have been possible.

44. What’s the best part about school?
Friends + Recess/Lunch

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
Duh what kind of stupid question is this?

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
Hmm rarely.. but sometimes yes

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Yes

48. Were you single over the last summer?
Yes

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Not really. I mean, it would be really sad if it was right. Stagnant.

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Lang Arts homework. But Joey REFUSES to let me.

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
No I don't hate my brother.

52. Are you nice to everyone?
Yes. Lol kidding of course not. Though I do act nice in front of people I don't like, which is mean but they are people who I don't like so who cares.

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yes.

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Idk. No la joking of course I can.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I suppose so.

56. Do you think you like someone?
No

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
Uhh I don't think so.

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
Girls

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
Yup

60. Do you hate anyone?
Change to dislike. Yeah.

61. How’s your heart?
Working perfectly well thank you very much

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
No

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
Idk

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
The person next to me

65. Are your toenails painted pink?
No

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I hope not

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry, correct?
No not like sissies

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
Almost yeah. But unfortunately not fully. Haha

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
Joey

70. How do you look right now?
Great

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Yesss

72. Can you commit to one person?
Idk

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Maybe

74. Have you ever felt replaced?
Yup

75. Did you wake up cranky?
No. I was quite happy.

76. Are you a jealous person?
Not all the time

77. Are relationships ever worth it?
Guess so, if you're in the right one

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
Yes

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
No

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Ballet :(

81. Last person you cried in front of?
Can't remember.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?
Yes

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
No I don't have feelings for anyone at this moment haha.

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
Talk. But anw refer to previous question (no person in mind)

85. Are you over your past?
Why do I have to get over my past? I mean it's over but I don't have to be over it. Get it?

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
Maybe

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
No

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
Nope. The presents yes but apology no.

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
I wouldn't be awake at 3am just for your info

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
No

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
If I was able to predict then wouldn't I know everything that will be happening in my life?

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
Yes

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
Nope

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
No.

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
I don't even remember who I liked last month. Anw if I liked a person of course I would be happy with him -.-

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
Uhh yeah Joey she's...unique and cute haha.

97. Who do you have texts from?
My friends.

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
I would be devastated and proceed to jump off the building. No of course not what can I do? Accept the fact and move on with life duh.

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
I don't think so

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
JOEY

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
No

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Haha YES.

2011-12-12T16:57:00.001+08:00

Playlist 121211:

1. 爱请问怎么走 - A Lin
2. I'll Be There - Chris Rene
3. Affirmation - Savage Garden
4. 復刻回忆 - 許仁杰 & 刘明湘
5. Beethoven Virus - Diana Boncheva

Just some songs that I'm currently obsessed with (: Heard (1) and (4) randomly on Youtube, (2) on X Factor the previous week, (3) on the radio while I was in Australia and (5) on 公益献爱心(which was very lousy but at least I didn't waste my time watching it because I heard this awesome tune).
Anyway, I've just finished watching 我可能不会爱你 (In Time With You) and I must say that it's a really good drama. One of the best in recent years, plus the ending was very complete and satisfying so - Highly Recommended Drama Series (:

2011-12-11T21:50:00.001+08:00

As much as I love Australia, I'm really glad to be back in Singapore. The trip was relatively enjoyable, so I may post about it tomorrow ("may" being the key word here).
Anyway, I was in a really foul mood during dinner just now. I was at Kimly's Seafood with my family to celebrate my gm's birthday and I had green tea and my brother had coffee but that's not the point. The point is, out of the seven dishes that were ordered, I could only enjoy two because the rest were spicy dishes. I mean, I totally understand that I'm not the main lead of the dinner, but isn't two out of seven a little pathetic?
"Oh I've tried it and it wasn't spicy at all. You can definitely take it." so said my brother. Okay so I try one mouth and I practically choked on it. But what can I do? If I don't eat a bit of everything I'll be left with nothing in my stomach. And the worst thing was, when I was trying so hard to force the food down my esophagus, my parents randomly commented that there were only small bits of chilli in the dishes and it shouldn't be that bad. Excuse me for saying this, but try having small bits of faeces in your food and let's see if you'll still be able to enjoy your meal. Don't tell me that it's two completely different issues, because it's not. It sucks being the only one in the family who can't take spicy food.

2011-12-02T15:34:00.001+08:00

Bye bye Singapore! (:

2011-12-01T16:21:00.001+08:00

All the symptoms that show that I'm falling sick are appearing one by one (Feeling super cold and tired and uncomfortable, losing appetite etc). Praying hard that I won't fall sick like I always do just before I'm supposed to go overseas, or else the whole trip will just be ruined.

2011-11-28T15:18:00.001+08:00

漂流瓶 - 柯震东 & 陈妍希
你會在哪裡　現在你叫什麼名
密封了勇氣　落空決心
我摀著自己　外面世界不安靜
而心很確定　想聽你呼吸
Love　把心扔到海裡
刻上愛的字跡　時光帶我去有你的地方

漂流著一千年都過了我在海裡頭
有一種見不到你就不回去的念頭
旋渦中聽見耳邊的風微微顫抖
滄海桑田　黑夜白晝
我隨著時間的方向一圈圈打著轉
你會不會找到我將要在哪裡靠岸
如果有一天　撞上一個小缺口
我怕　沉入海底

如果愛有錯　也等的起

2011-11-24T16:28:00.001+08:00

HIIIIIIII!!! AMANDA IS AT MY HOUSE NOW, GUESS WHO I AM!

2011-11-22T22:23:00.001+08:00

Haha went to support my friends for their ballet exam today ^^ Helped with all the minor stuff, then sent them into the examination room. Was totally keeping my fingers crossed for them because I know how scary the examination can be. Walked to Awfully Chocolate with Ms Tan while waiting for their exams to be over and she bought all of us X'mas Cupcakes! Tasted like heaven omg but so freaking expensive I couldn't believe my ears.
Went to Orchard with Freda and her Malaysian cousin after her ballet exams. Her cousin is sooooo funny and cute HAHA I can't believe I'm huachi-ing here. Okay anyway the way they interact is like so damn cute because they converse in Chinese (because he can't really speak English well) but with Malaysian accents and they are like so 熟 so they keep suan-ing each other and saying super lame stuff. Plus they were both wearing white tops and blue bottoms and had purple streaks in their fringes so they totally looked like and sounded like 老夫老妻 haha (: Had an awesome time going out with both of them and I discovered many shops in Orchard that sell nice guy apparels (gonna bring my brother there in future). Yeap so today was a fun day but tomorrow will be a slack day~

2011-11-21T21:13:00.001+08:00

Playlist 211111

1. 搁浅 - 周杰伦
2. 如果我变成回忆 - Tank
3. Mr Simple - Super Junior
4. 轨迹 - 周杰伦
5. Leavin' - Jesse McCartney
6. 酸甜 - 飞轮海 & SHE

2011-11-21T19:13:00.001+08:00

Ballet was okay today. I mean, not extremely tedious. But I felt really tired. Like my head was aching really badly and I was yawning to the point where I was actually tearing. So I wasn't really concentrating and my work was not too good I guess.
Anyway, checked my phone after ballet and saw a shocking message from Joey. She said that I had been allocated a combination with Physics in it. And the thing is I don't take Physics. So yeah I thought that it was a prank but in the end, it wasn't.
I had to email the teacher and he replied me saying that he had posted an announcement during the selection to inform that the subject in the combination should have been Physics instead of Econs. But well I didn't see the announcement, and I'm quite sure pretty much no one else did too. So yeah I had to rechoose two combinations for my appeal form and I'm feeling quite sad and stupid now because I just realised that most probably I'll have to take Bio next year. Great. Just when I thought I had gotten rid of it. It's back to haunt me nowwwwwwww. Damn stupid. Totally ruined my day.

2011-11-18T15:24:00.001+08:00

And now guess what. I'm freaking stuck at home with nothing to do and my brother's friends are over in the room next door which is freaking my room and they're laughing like mad so damn loudly and I can't block the noise out because I'm in my parents' room and the stupid door happens to be spoilt so it can only be closed halfway. And I can still hear their voices. Oh let me just narrate what I hear since I'm so damn bored anyway and there's no way for me to stop hearing them.
They're playing The Game Of Life and this girl just chose two career cards but she doesn't want either one of them so she's like complaining and whining and flirting with my brother and co. in order to choose another card. And my brother seems to be enjoying it very much. So I'm terribly disappointed to say that he's just another typical guy who likes cute girls with fake high-pitched laughters. Oh they're laughing again damn it it's so damn torturous to be stuck here I feel so mean to be talking about them like that but the urge to chase them out of the house is oh-so-tempting. Oh shit they left the room and they're playing right outside my parents' room I can hear every single word they're saying.
Lesson of the Day: Never stay at home when your sibling's friends are over. Failure to abide will result in sufferable consequences.

2011-11-18T13:56:00.001+08:00

This week started out really productive, with me waking up at 8am on both Monday and Wednesday to go for 2-3hrs of ballet each. But then my big right toe started to hurt really badly and I had to see a doctor. Turned out that I had a toe infection (because of the heavy pointe work I've been doing and a past toe injury that wasn't treated effectively) and so I was advised by my doctor to abstain from dance for at least a week. So sadly I've been lazing around at home doing practically nothing for the past two days :(
But nevertheless I went out with my ballet friends yesterday and it wasn't too bad. Ate at Ramen Ten (Clementi branch) and the food there was okay but sorry still not comparable to Sakae Sushi. Then we went shopping (Yes shopping omg my best friend. If you haven't sensed the sacarsm at this point of time then we probably aren't best friends what can I say) for yuwen's prom dress and we finally found one thank goodness. She was deciding between pink and blue and I was voting for blue but in the end she chose pink (which wasn't too bad but my loyalties lie with blue). But anyway she looked awesome in the dress so I guess the colour didn't really matter haha. Anyway I'm really glad that we're not having a prom this year and that I don't have to face my nightmare of shopping for a dress.

2011-11-15T19:39:00.001+08:00

Well well well. What do you expect me to do then? Continue speaking my mind when no one even bothers listening properly? My supposedly childish words are of no match for your supposedly mature mind set. So tell me. Why should I continue wasting my time trying to change your thinking? I'ld rather get criticised for being unforgiving and grudge-bearing than let my heartfelt words be so easily forsaken by you. Just continue your stubborn, self-centred and high-and-mighty ways, and come one day, I'll step out of this house without you even realising why. Because you don't bother to listen, and I can't be bothered to make you listen.

2011-11-13T13:27:00.001+08:00

Went to send the scholars off to China early this morning with Kyu Houng and Shijing. Crazy thing to do but I don't regret it anyway. Got to see them one last time before they disappear for a long long time and come back just before X'mas. Felt kind of sad seeing them walk into the boarding area, but I guess that's normal. Nevertheless, I wish them a fun and safe trip and I think I'll miss them a lot.

2011-11-12T21:59:00.001+08:00

Ballet was good today (: Did better than I thought I could on pointe, and had lots of fun working hard (unbelievable) because my hard work actually paid off. So yeah today was one of the better lessons (:
Anyway, I really hate those times when I say something, and then people just ignore me or pretend not to hear and I'm left there feeling like some idiot. It actually happened twice today and it's forcing me to contemplate just shutting my mouth up because nothing I say actually matters. I've stopped wishing for people to acknowledge my presence because when they don't I feel really sad and I shouldn't because it's so damn stupid but I can't help it even though I know that other people's opinions about me shouldn't even matter and I'm sorry for this super long sentence I don't even know if I'm making sense anymore whatever I should just stop now bye bye.

2011-11-11T22:40:00.001+08:00

Playlist 111111

1. 如果我变成回忆 - TANK
2. Skyscraper - Demi Lovato
3. Still (As Ever) - FT Island
4. 懂了 - TANK
5. Rolling In The Deep - Adele
6. Mr. Simple - Super Junior
7. 酸甜 - Fahrenheit & SHE
8. Waka Waka - Shakira
9. In Heaven - JYJ
10. 专属天使 - TANK
11. Leavin' - Jesse McCartney
12. What Should I Do - Jang Geun Suk

2011-11-10T22:19:00.001+08:00

To think I was stupid enough to believe. To trust that I wouldn't feel it again. That feeling. I hated it. And yet the exact one actually came back to haunt me again today. When I least expected it to. Just like a vicious cycle. Damn.
Anyway, watched《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》with Jia Qi, Kyu Houng, Xu Xi, Gina and Zi Ying this afternoon after HCL O's (which was kind of screwed so I might as well forget it) and the movie was awesome. The male lead and female lead were goodlooking (definitely a plus in the movie). It was sick as hell, but I expected that from 九把刀 having read his 魔力棒球 in the past. But really funny and touching too. The ending was sad but I kind of expected it (as in, it made sense, but I didn't really want it to because a happy ending would have been much better received). Really enjoyed the movie and I think I'm going to borrow the book soon (:

2011-11-07T16:37:00.002+08:00

Playlist 071111

1. I Don't Want To Talk About It - 刘明湘
2. 勇敢 - 李佳薇
3. 依然爱你 - Jason Chen
4. 天天 - Jason Chen
5. 深海 - 李佳薇
6. 青梅竹马 - 黄捷
7. Our Song - Taylor Swift
8. Moves Like Jagger - Tiffany Alvord & Jason Chen
9. 跟你借的幸福 - 刘明湘

2011-11-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

Lesson of the Day: Select "Snooze" instead of "Stop"
Well, I was supposed to wake up at 8 this morning so that I would have more-than-enough time to wash up, take a bus and find the place where we were supposed to assemble for the Health Mapping Exercise by 9.15am. So I set my alarm for 7.30am, giving myself a healthy 30 mins to procrastinate and drag myself out of bed. Bad decision.
7.30am. There's still half an hour - Snooze, go back to sleep.
7.35am. Still 25 mins - Snooze, sleep a little longer.
7.40am. 20 mins - Snooze, more sleep.
7.45am. Okay I get it, just give me five more mins. Irritating alarm - Stop, sleep for five more mins.
Five mins later (or so I thought). Check phone - Message from Yixuan: You wearing jeans? Time of message: 8.15. Oh shit, fifteen mins off schedule.
Take a closer look at phone. Time: 9.04. 9.04. 9.04????? WTS.
Jumps out of bed, grabs random pair of jeans, PE tee and undergarments and runs to toilet.
Plans edited schedule in head while changing. Okay five mins to change and pack bag, five to get there. No problem Amanda, you can do it.
Phase 1: Pees, brushes teeth, washes face, changes clothes, gives screwed hair a 2 sec comb, dumps wallet phone earphones water bottle rubberband and comb in random bag, jams feet into first pair of shoes available, grabs keys, runs out of house. Time check: 9.10.
Phase 2: Jabs lift button frantically, gets into lift, runs towards main road, flags for taxi. One busy taxi. Two busy taxis. Three. Four. Thank goodness one green taxi. Gets into taxi. Uncle says Good Morning happily. Fumbles in bag and pulls out comb to tie hair while saying "Hendersonroadblock91uncleIaminahurrypleasemakeitquickthankyou". Uncle shuts up and starts driving fast. One red light. Two red lights. Three. Finally reaches destination. Time check: 9.18.
Phase 3: Pays uncle ten bucks. Waits impatiently while he finds change. Grabs change, runs out of cab. Stares blurly at forest of flats in front of me. Asks first passerby where's blk 91. She points left and says there. Runs there and checks block number - 93. Asks second passerby same question. She points in front. Runs in front and checks block number - 92. Gives up and tries to figure out the way myself. Runs to the next block and checks block number - 91. Heaves sigh of relief. Looks around and doesn't see anything. Calls Weining. Weining tries to give directions. Gives up, passes phone to Yixin. Yixin gives directions. Finally reaches the place. Time check: 9.24.
So, get my point?
Anyway, the Health Mapping Exercise itself was quite a fruitful experience for me. Tiring, but I got to conduct health screenings, health surveys, and understand the lives of people in Singapore who are not neccessarily as privileged as me. Hopefully I'll be able to do more stuff like this in future. Okay not neccessarily the health screening and surverying part, but the getting to know the lives of others part I think I would like very much. So today was a day well-spent. But the start was still horrible.

2011-11-04T16:56:00.001+08:00

Liking 王力宏 more and more! He's a really goodlooking singer who writes fantastic songs. But I don't like the way he always changes the tune of his songs when he sings live, because his songs are not allowed to be embedded in music playlists, so I have to find live versions and they always sound so different from the original. Anyway,I was extremely disappointed with 《火力全开》(I tried listening to it a few times, but in the end it still didn't appeal to me. Oh well, maybe I just don't know how to appreciate that kind of music), but he made a comeback with 《依然爱你》. Oh and cute music video btw (:

依然愛你 - 王力宏
一閃一閃亮晶晶
留下歲月的痕跡
我的世界的中心
依然還是你

一年一年又一年
飛逝僅在一轉眼
唯一永遠不改變
是不停地改變

我不像從前的自己
你也有點不像你
但在我眼中你的笑
依然的美麗
日子只能往前走
一個方向順時鐘
不知道還有多久
所以要讓你懂我依然愛你就是唯一的退路

我依然珍惜時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸每一個動作每個表情
到最後一定會
依然愛你

我依然愛你或許是命中注定
多年之後任何人都無法代替
那些時光是我這一輩子最美好的
那些回憶依然無法忘記

我依然愛你就是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸每一個動作每個表情
到最後一定會
依然愛你

你每個呼吸每一個動作每個表情
到永遠一定會
依然愛你

2011-11-04T16:46:00.004+08:00

Awesome song, awesome rendition (:

青梅竹马 - 周治平（黄捷版本）

是谁和谁的心，
刻在树上的痕迹
是谁和谁的名，
留在墙上未曾洗去
虽然分手的季节在变
虽然离别的理由在变
但那些青梅竹马的爱情不曾忘记
是谁给谁的信，
藏在深锁的抽屉
是谁和谁和身影，
留在泛黄的相片里

虽然情侣的誓言在变
虽然说谎的方式在变
但那些魂萦梦系的秘密不曾忘记
当我们唱着一些无聊的歌曲
谈着爱与不爱的问题
幻想是林黛玉爱着贾宝玉
或是牛郎织女约在七夕

而那些作过的梦唱过的歌爱过的人
那些我们天真的以为永远不会结束的事
而作过的梦唱过的歌爱过的人
留在漫漫岁月不能在续

2011-10-31T12:54:00.002+08:00

Many thanks to Yi Xuan for the awesome video ^^

2011-10-29T22:44:00.001+08:00

The Key to an Awesome Class of 3BingBongBiang'10/4Bidden'11:

It all begins with a crazy, vulgar tablemate (who happens to be not-so-secretly in love with yours sincerely) on the left,

and another crazy tablemate on the right who doesn't sleep enough at home and daydreams about being the next president cum Mrs Kim Hyun Joong cum Mrs Key,

with the addition of a number (22), a food type (sushi) and an evolution of 7-up (plus 7).

From the year 2010, when we were all still innocent, stupid kids

to the year 2011, when we were not so innocent but still stupid kids.

Throw in a super successful class chalet,

a compulsory, but nevertheless, enjoyable visit to the museum,

the organisation of a money-cheating PacMan game,

and many other crazy but unforgettable memories.

And you get a crazy, wonderful class made up of so many different people, but still absolutely bonded..

3B'10/4B'11

2011-10-28T21:03:00.000+08:00

It was an extremely emotional day. Happy sad happy sad happy sad.
So much fun we had, so many tears were shed.
Each and every one of us is so different, but when together, we make up such an awesome class.
The times we spent together, the memories we shared - so damn precious.
I'm never going to forget 4B'11, and every single person in 4B'11.
Seriously, I have no idea how I'm going to adapt to a class without you guys next year.
You guys have given me so much, and I will always, always remember that.
Thanks for everything. I'll miss you guys a lot.
I love 4B'11.

2011-10-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

Love shopping for gifts with my friends! To be honest, shopping is almost bottom of my list of favourite things to do, but shopping with a goal and good company is another thing altogether. So, today was awesome with Kyu Houng and Jia Qi (:
Spent the afternoon and evening doing something I absolutely hate - Gardening. Raking up one stubbon pile of soil after another was seriously no joke. To be honest, I was virtually stunned at the number that turned up to help out. Sure, the response wasn't all that overwhelming when we had asked for volunteers, but I had thought that in the end, the turn-out would not be all that pathetic. And I was indeed wrong. Nevertheless, it was an unforgettable experience. In spite of it being fairly torturous, I had the honor of enjoying the experience with a few of my friends, and I'm sure that it was one that we will always remember.

2011-10-25T20:29:00.002+08:00

Things have been weird at school. So much is going on, which makes no sense at all because afterall, the exams are over. One incident after another, one blow after another. I wonder when this will stop.
Oh and not to forget, my obsession with chips is getting worse. Sour cream and onion chips.

2011-10-24T21:25:00.001+08:00

Playlist 241011:
1. It has to be love - Drew Ryniewicz
2. 放了自己 - 魔幻力量
3. 如果明天世界末日 - 魔幻力量
4. 如果我变成回忆 - Tank
5. Forever Love - 王力宏
6. 世界末日 - 周杰伦

2011-10-24T19:58:00.002+08:00

Well, travelled around the vast world of social networking sites before I finally returned to the safe home of Blogger. Tumblr was too complicated for me, Twitter too stingy in word count and LiveJournal just incomplete without the function of music playlists. So, here I am, back in Blogger.

2011-08-09T18:25:00.003+08:00

ROD.

It just came too soon. I was never prepared for it.

I thought we had a year. I never knew that a year passed so quickly.

I still remember the first time we took the sec threes for act, it seemed like just yesterday.

And now, we're handing the unit over to them.

I trust that they will do a good job. I really do.

But I just wished that time hadn't passed so fast and I had done more.

I wanted to do so much. We wanted to do so much.

But did we? I don't know.

Were the tears that fell last night ones of relief? Of sheer reluctance? Or of regret?

I didn't know then, I still don't know now, and I might never know.

I just hope that the sec threes have learnt enough for them to handle their roles with ease.

Squadmates.

Thanks for everything that you guys have given me.

You guys are the closest friends that I have. I mean it.

I'm never afraid of showing my ugliest side to you guys.

Because I know that you guys will never ask for me to change, but instead, accept me for who I am.

And I'm grateful for that.

I will always remember the times we spent together.

The laugh-bound times, the tear-filled times.

All of them.

I know that we won't fall apart even after ROD, because I have absolute trust in our friendship.

I know that ten years down the road, twenty years down the road, we'll still be the way we are now, probably even closer.

Thank you squadmates, for always being there for me.

Thank you squadmates, for giving me a friendship that I never knew I could have.

Thank you squadmates, for giving me something to look forward to every single day.

Thank you squadmates, for being in my life.

I love Hotshots, and I always will.

(;

Sec Threes.

I seldom post about you guys. In fact, I don't think I've ever done that.

Because I know that you guys won't see this.

But this time, no matter what, I have to get these thoughts off my mind.

Thank you Sec Threes, for the wonderful one year that you guys have given me.

I have never regretted choosing to take your squad, and I'm grateful for having been given the chance to take your squad.

Because you guys are awesome.

I've read your letters.

Your apologies for disappointing me once and again.

What I wanna say is that you guys have NEVER disappointed me.

In fact, I wouldn't have asked for a better squad than Bubbletea Squad.

I'm honoured and thankful that I was able to watch you all grow from childish sec threes to mature and responsible NCOs.

I believe that's how your two other ICs feel too.

We've learnt so much from you guys, and we hope that you guys have learnt some stuff from us too.

We have absolute trust in you guys, and we hope that Bubbletea Squad will remain bonded as ever.

Thank you for everything that you guys have given us.

The dance was awesome;

The gifts were awesome;

The memories were awesome.

So stay awesome and bonded;

You guys know that we'll be there whenever you need us (;

2011-08-03T16:11:00.000+08:00

Playlist 300711:
1.想你想得好孤寂 - 邰正宵
2.梦醒时分 - 陈淑桦
3.领悟 - 辛晓琪
4.圆梦 - 康康
5.想说 - 许志安
6.太傻 - 巫启贤
7.用背叛成全背叛 - 许志安
(;

2011-07-18T21:04:00.002+08:00

Playlist 180711:
1. One Love - Blue
2. 复制人 - 黄鸿升
3. How Do I Live - LeAnn Rimes
4. 好的事情 - 严爵

2011-07-18T20:06:00.000+08:00

紧紧捂住泪湿的脸颊，心碎的声音就听不见了吗？

2011-07-18T18:49:00.003+08:00

小明坐在房间里，望着被狗吃掉的烂功课。

原来被误会的感觉是如此。先是不敢相信的耳朵，再是无法自灭的火气，结是渐渐加效的心痛。曾经天真以为努力付出就会得来结果的我，竟然被自己的无知给打败了。
你要我解释。解释什么？
解释我为什么不懂得表达出内心的感受吗？还是我为什么那么愚蠢，连自己被误解了也不懂得为自己辩解？
辩解有用吗？人只相信自己所看到的。你没看到的，你会相信吗？
既然如此，我为何要为自己辩解？

小明坐在房间里，望着被狗吃掉的烂功课。

2011-07-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

I have absolutely no right to be angry. But some things just can't be helped.

2011-07-12T21:28:00.003+08:00

I'm dreading the Eighth of August. Terribly. A sudden realisation dawned upon me today while I was watching the Sec Threes drill. In less than a month's time, there would be no more act. No more Sec Threes. No more squadmates. No more RVNP Ncos'11. Yes, we would still see each other, we would still spend time together. But I know that things will never be the same again. We would just be another part of RVNP's long history. A very small part. I never thought that it would be this hard. I never thought that I would feel so much when the time came for us to part. But now I know better.

2011-07-09T22:16:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry.. I should have known better.

2011-07-07T18:56:00.002+08:00

Kind of worried for tomorrow. I have no idea why. Have been worried several days in a row for many different things..crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.
Anw, I got in. (;

2011-07-02T21:45:00.003+08:00

My dear brother got hit by a soccer ball during a soccer match yesterday LOL. His spectacles broke and scratched his face and I don't know what else happened but now he has an ugly cut on the area near his eye. And he's wearing contacts now omg..and I think he's getting addicted to wearing contacts. But he's still getting new spectacles though.
Damn happy cuz he said he couldn't choose btwn two so he wants me to help him pick on Monday(; Yeap but the spectacles salesperson taught him how to put on contacts and even gave him 7 for free! So now he's an expert at putting on contacts and he was suanning me like mad in the car cuz I always take one hour to put on contacts for my ballet exams-.-But he looks quite weird in contacts..looks a bit like carebear LOL. I think I'm gonna get him a carebear for his birthday(;
Ballet was okay today..other than the part where ms tan told us to side split and pushed me insistently in btwn the bar and the mirror, towards the mirror. I could feel my thigh muscles TEARING. It still hurts like shit now. :(

2011-07-01T23:50:00.002+08:00

If you want me in a discussion, make sure you want me in a discussion. Don’t just leave my suggestion hanging there like a piece of thread.
Guess what? In case you don’t know, it makes me feel like shit. At least acknowledge my presence tyvm. Or else just stop wasting my time.
Now, I’m just too lazy to state my opinions. It makes no difference anyway, so why bother? Even if you see it, I’ll still have to fight back your arguments. I don’t have strength to do that.
You know what? Just forget that I ever said anything. It doesn’t matter. Not at all.

2011-06-26T18:50:00.002+08:00

I seriously don't know why you're doing all these to me. Stop playing these stupid tricks behind my back, it's not cool at all. You wanna take me on? Just do it directly and stop being a coward. 我决不手下留情，将你打得落花流水。你放马过来吧，我全力奉陪。
That aside, I've decided to stop 亲爱的安德烈and continue with the more important 魔力棒球, which I've to do an extremely long presentation on (and yes, it'll be graded). So far, I'm at page..let me see..15. Not too bad. 200plus more to go. (;
School reopens tomorrow. So looking forward man.

2011-06-24T21:26:00.002+08:00

22-24 June
4B Chalet! Loved the crazy mahjong sessions, arcade "fishing"s, midnight kbox, confusing name calling card games etc. Thanks everyone for being so supportive and for putting in effort to make this chalet a success, hope that all of you had fun(; 4BDN FTW~

24 June
Ballet outing at Sentosa! Awesome potluck, super tiring kayaking, suntanning, drinks session, ball games+epic punishment etc. Had loads of fun with you guys as usual, looking forward to our next official class tgt(;

2011-06-20T21:42:00.002+08:00

Playlist 210611:
1.Bad Woman - FT Island
2.After Love - FT Island
3.复制人 - 黄鸿升
4.想自由 - 林宥嘉
5.慢慢等 - 韦礼安
6.我们都傻 - 杨丞琳
7.好的事情 - 严爵

2011-06-16T21:55:00.002+08:00

Well, I didn't go to Malaysia in the end. But will be going this weekend instead. Hmmm will be going for an interview tmr, hope that it goes well and I don't stutter or smth. Following that will be unit bbq. Not sure of what to expect but anw, as long as there's food and squadmates it should be okay. Completed most of my homework, other than the reading of the assigned chinese book and CLit homework(which will probably take up lots of time). Oh and I forgot-Bicul CID-.-

2011-06-10T22:48:00.002+08:00

Squad chalet was great! Haha had loads of fun with squadmates. Too lazy to post another recount of it here so if anyone wants to, you can go to the-hotshots.blogspot.com to kaypoh LOL. Going to Malaysia tmr I think..

2011-06-08T21:23:00.002+08:00

2B outing today was awesome! Can't believe that we could all still get along so well even after such a long time. Had loads of fun haha(: Gong Cha+Piggyback Game+Truth or Dare+Captain's Frisbee+Insidious+Super Failed Neoprints! Awesome ttm..
Sharon,Jolene,Joey,Ying Ying,Yun Hui,Wan Xin,Shi Kai,Zi Hao,Sebas,Timothy,Wei Quan,Yi Heng,Yong Sheng FTW!(:

2011-06-06T14:01:00.002+08:00

Amanda the Pig is probably at her squad chalet now so I'm posting here! Let me share with you guys some things about Amanda:

1. She has a pretty mum with a high-pitched voice
2. She has a cool brother (who has a cool voice) in Table-Tennis and NPCC
3. She has a cute-looking dad
4. She has nice Dars chocolates at home
5. She lives at an amazing 25th floor
6. She misses me quite a lot but for pride's sake she's saying that she's saying she misses me just to entertain me. Get it? Hehe.
7. She probably won't read this post till Friday when she gets back from her squad chalet and she'll look like that: :O

just that the eyes will be smaller than ':' and they'll probably look like slits. Or maybe one slitty one big. Inside joke but anyway! Haha hope the pig is enjoying herself now :)

- Joey

2011-06-05T21:02:00.002+08:00

I feel so ashamed of myself..Joey the Lazy Pig just posted a whole long chunk on MY blog. And my posts are like. This length. But anyway, not surprised that the pig misses me so much. From the way she was BEGGING me not to hang up the phone, it was quite obvious haha. Well, just to entertain her, I miss you too pig! Awww..gross man. I can't believe I'm saying this. Oh and pig, remember to watch 醉后决定爱上你okay? So that we can't talk about it on Wednesday(:

Looking forward to squad chalet! It's from tomorrow to Friday, but I'll be missing Wednesday for 2B class outing^^I know that both of them will be awesome, can't wait! Oh and I love the picture pig! But I love this one more haha(:

2011-06-05T19:39:00.005+08:00

Hi everyone, Amanda gave me her account details so here I am to post! The pig is too lazy to try out her passwords one by one (and update) and so has given me a few passwords for me to try. And tada, here I am! I kind of miss the pig because I've not seen her for quite a while. But I talked to her on the phone for over an hour just now and she's quite funny. I think it's quite amazing we're still talking to each other despite (physical) obstacles in our ways such as being in different classes and on different levels! Not like that's some huge challenge but it's so nice we're still talking. I think the pig is very funny and it's so nice to talk to her :)

I think it's true that absence makes the heart grow fonder, and the pig's absence in (most parts of) my life nowadays has made me feel a little empty. How I wish we're in the same class. But sometimes closeness isn't too good and a little distance apart may make me appreciate her more! I think this is quite cheesy and when the pig comes online later to see this she'll get a shock. HEHE. I'm like always saying stupid disgusting stuff to her she won't be able to get used to this.. haha anyway let me tell you all something. The pig and I were discussing about what to wear/bring on Wednesday for 2B outing and she was like "bathe already wear home clothes ah?" and I went "if not wear uniform meh"! Amanda the pig hehe.

I think I MISS AMANDA SO MUCH!!!! I miss all the laughter we shared etc. It sounds so cliche but it's true! AMANDA :) :) :)

I think she's the one and only pig as greedy and as dirty as me :) just not as fat as me and that's a pity hehe.

Stupid pig :)

- Joey

2011-05-27T22:49:00.003+08:00

At that point of time, I didn't know whether to laugh or to cry.
I mean, I should have expected it right?
Not being chosen..Was it a reflection of my standard against theirs?
And now this.
I really don't know what else to say.
Sad. Disappointed. Pissed.
What can I do?
Seriously.
I don't know.

2011-05-24T20:48:00.001+08:00

I don't know. I really don't :(

2011-05-22T21:58:00.001+08:00

Playlist 220511:
1. My Love - Westlife
2. Unbreakable - Westlife
3. Home - Westlife
4. 好的事情 - 严爵

2011-05-11T20:32:00.002+08:00

Damn screwed.
It just seems like nothing ever comes out from all the hard work that I put in. Trying not to give up on hope but still..it does get a little depressing when everything suddenly starts turning out like shit.
And..oh yeah. I just failed my math paper. Awesome or what?

2011-05-08T16:47:00.003+08:00

Playlist 080511:
1.Sometimes When We Touch - Olivia Ong
2.幸福事小 - 倪安东
3.Need You Now - Lady Antebellum
4.612星球 - SHE
5.When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

2011-05-08T16:22:00.003+08:00

612 星球 - S.H.E

满园玫瑰我以爲找到我那一朵
认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手
责备什麽人也没有用
玫瑰都红难免看错

望着天空爱是风活在童话里头
小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱会一直寂寞

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

擦干眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙
小王子说爱一定开在某个角落
不想相爱的人那麽多
我会幸福吗在什麽时候

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

2011-05-08T16:20:00.002+08:00

幸福事小 - 倪安东

吃完镀了金的牛排镶了钻的蛋胃还是那么的孤单
只有一想到了晚餐有妳的笑下饭漫长的一天才不难捱

穿着限量版的衬衫羡慕声不断也没让我觉得温暖
如果不是有妳呼吸在皮肤上不散怎么抵御世界的冷淡

幸福是一想到妳就心安
地要老天要荒的谁还想管
幸福是一起醒来说早安
海枯石烂这种大事与我无关

听过圣诗般的称赞嘘寒或问暖耳朵也开不出花瓣
直到妳在电话那端问我几点下班动听得让心花灿烂

攀过最纯白的雪山最澎湃的海回忆也没有更精彩
直到妳侧脸的曲线在我手心蜿蜒才懂得什么事最浪漫

幸福是一想到妳就心安
地要老天要荒的谁还想管
幸福是一起醒来说早安
海枯石烂这种大事与我无关

幸福是完成妳每一个期盼
登月或摘星留给谁去狂欢
幸福是陪着妳回味遗憾
伟大的圆满与我们真的无关

2011-05-06T21:57:00.002+08:00

I'm free!!Haha it just feels awesome to be relieved from all the tests.
Anw,Kbox and lunch at Jack's Place with squadmates today was totally awesome! I seriously enjoyed myself a lot. Thanks squadmates for the awesome day^^

2011-05-05T21:28:00.002+08:00

Up till this point of time, I'm still convinced that it was our fault. High expectations, high standards, high level of disappointment. Does that mean that low expectations lead to low standards, and even higher level of disappointment?

2011-05-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

等。等。等。
我等到累了。

2011-05-02T16:29:00.002+08:00

Playlist 020511:
1.Wedding dress - Taeyang
2.剪爱 - 张惠妹
3.Sorry that I loved you - Anthony Neely
4.Marry you -Bruno Mars
5.散场的拥抱 - 倪安东
6.Mine - Taylor Swift
7.掌纹 - 曹格
8.Back to December - Taylor Swift
9.幸福事小 - 倪安东
10.612 星球 - SHE

2011-04-26T21:36:00.001+08:00

It's my fault. I'm sorry.

2011-04-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

戚玉武! 瑞恩! Awesome(: Finally recognised. Best actor and best actress(:

2011-04-23T22:11:00.003+08:00

Playlist 230411
1. 戒不掉 - 庾澄庆
2. 烛光晚餐 - 曹格
3. 世界唯一的你 - 曹格
4. Big Big World - Emilia
5. 爱夏 - 胡夏

I officially hate skipping ropes. I kind of remember staying away from them when I was young, but I never remembered the reason why. Now I do. Why? Because they make me look stupid. And clumsy. They get stuck in my bun. And they get tangled with my feet. And they show off my awesome skill of coordination. I will never ever get involved with skipping ropes again. Never.
Anyway,nice songs up there. (1) and (2) I heard on the radio and got addicted to, (3) is one of my all-time favourites, (4) heard on the radio too(it's really simple,but really good), and (5) is a repeat from a past playlist. Yeap.
Having a terrible flu. And a terrible headache. And terrible muscle aches from the stretching exercises I did during ballet today. So you can kind of conclude that I'm feeling terrible now.

2011-04-18T21:32:00.001+08:00

Keeping my fingers crossed and praying hard for you. Stay strong, Hotshots will always be there for you.

2011-04-16T10:03:00.002+08:00

Immense guilt penetrated through and alas, the tears fell. So many things I could have done, should have done. So many things I could have said, should have said. And the things I shouldn't have said, I said. And now, she's leaving. And I can do nothing about it. I guess the tears were of shock. Of regret. Of disappointment. That I didn't do anything that I could have done. I didn't do anything that I should have done.

2011-04-09T20:38:00.003+08:00

Playlist 090411:
1. Sorry seems to be the hardest word - Kenny G & Richard Marx

Beautiful background music and awesome voice. Best version ever.

2011-04-09T20:22:00.002+08:00

Having a massive headache. Praying hard that I don't have a fever.

2011-04-06T21:56:00.000+08:00

I feel exceptionally happy on rainy days. (:

2011-04-04T20:26:00.003+08:00

Selfish jerk. Just like all the others.

2011-04-04T20:22:00.003+08:00

13.25 :)